I had a miscarriage…
And I’m going to be ok. It’s taken me awhile to really come to terms with the fact. We had been trying for 2.5 years we finally got pregnant and 11 weeks later on our 10 year wedding anniversary and the anniversary of the week my mom passed, we found out there was no heartbeat. No words will ever describe that moment. We were crushed. We were heartbroken. We never knew how attached we could be to that tiny baby. We had so many big plans. Our family would finally be complete. .
I was planning on getting a D& C the next week but as life is…I miscarried naturally before I could get the surgery. I was super freaked out when it started happening because it was so different than the way the doctor had described it. My husband was super supportive and there for me through the whole process, but there is nothing like a fellow mama who has been there to hold your hand as you go through one of the most physically and emotionally trying times of your life. Without the instant love and support of @lovestalgia and @beverleymitchell I don’t know if I would have made it through. Forever grateful! I knew both of them had miscarriages before but somehow when I read their stories on Instagram it resonated in a different way. I realized how many women had been in my shoes before and that I wasn’t alone. The more I shared in the coming weeks as painful as it was to acknowledge i was no longer pregnant, I realized that this was a lot more common than I had thought. Somehow seeing some pregnant and hearing stories about how they got pregnant shortly after miscarrying…I knew it was going to be ok. We were going to be ok
Just in the last week or two (it’s been about 8 weeks) I have started to come around to the other side and see that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I just started up fertility acupuncture again. .
I think the biggest takeaway of all of this is that life is fragile. Life is short and full of unexpected twists and turns but everything works out in the end. I’m getting back to a place where I’m present and whole. I know that when the time is right, there will be a rainbow baby waiting for us ❤️🌈❤️